I’m searching for a string of characters to describe the way I’m feeling
\nright now. I suppose I’ll just have to use English words.<\/p>\n
Sara Fitzgerald from Americans for Tax Reform called this afternoon at three,
\njust like she promised. She asked me questions like, “Would you consider
\nyourself a conservative, moderate, or liberal?” “Do you think the current tax
\nsystem is fair?” “Why are you interested in politics?” “Why do you want an
\ninternship?” I answered each one in my deliberate way, saying what I really
\nthought. I didn’t tell her I had Libertarian leanings, however.<\/p>\n
“Okay, Joanna,” she finally concluded, “we’d like to offer you an internship
\nat ATR this summer.” She went on to say that they had people come from May
\nto July 8, from then till August 14, and others that stayed the whole summer,
\nfrom the end of May to August. The pay is 100 dollars a week. I asked her
\nabout lodging availabilities. She gave me the numbers to a couple of
\ncolleges within walking distances to the Metro that offer housing, one of
\nwhich costs $210 a month and has a cafeteria. I also asked her what she
\nliked best about ATR. She said the connections. The president of the
\norganization evidently knows lots of people up there and is even an advisor
\nto Newt Gingrich [grin]. Then Sara told me to think about it for a couple of
\nweeks and call her back on April 24.<\/p>\n
So right now I’m sort of shaking inside. I’m terribly excited. This is the
\nsort of thing I was hoping I’d get. And then at the same time, I’m
\nterrified. Is this what I really want to do? Not just the offer, not simply
\nthis summer. Is this the field I want to explore? Is this the future I want
\nto have? Do I really want to focus my life toward politics and government?
\n Do I want to meet people in power? Make “connections”? Part of me screams
\nto run away. The other part sees the potential for great things if I follow
\nthis path. This might not only hold good for me but for what I can do to
\nbenefit others, benefit my country.<\/p>\n
Maybe I’m just a cynical idealist.<\/p>\n
I hate decisions. I mean, I love having the freedom to make them, but to
\nactually choose… to make a judgment… to set my mind and course of action
\nin a specific direction with no real option of turning back… that tightens
\nmy stomach into knots.<\/p>\n
So now I’m faced with something that has the possibility of being wonderful,
\nand I’m scared. I’m caught between beaming with pleasure and staring aghast
\ninto the face of the future. The fork in the road is looming ahead, and I
\nmust chose a path.<\/p>\n
I’ve asked God to guide my path and have pretty much always known that he
\ndoes. I’ve been amazed to see the perfect way he has orchestrated things so
\nfar. He seems to take delight in dropping opportunities in my lap. Instead
\nof pursuing, I’ve been captured by my destiny. And have had nothing to
\ncomplain about thus far. I’ve made overtures in other directions, just to
\nsee what’s out there, and had doors slam in my face. Perhaps this is meant
\nto be.<\/p>\n
When Sara asked me, “Why are you interested in politics?” I didn’t really
\nknow how to answer. “Why is anyone interested in anything?” I began. I
\ncan’t really explain it. All I can guess is that the Lord put this desire,
\nthis love, in my heart for a purpose. The fun, and perhaps frightening, part
\nis finding out what that purpose is. But life really isn’t worth living
\nwithout him, and what he wants for me is truly what I want for myself.<\/p>\n
In any case, I’m getting pretty excited. I asked mom if I could take the
\nsynthesizer keyboard with me if I went to Washington this summer. “I
\ndunno…” she answered slowly, “Maybe God will provide a family for you to
\nstay with that has a piano.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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