{"id":423,"date":"1996-04-09T22:35:46","date_gmt":"1996-04-10T04:35:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/nachzen.net:8080\/?p=423"},"modified":"2005-06-06T19:13:02","modified_gmt":"2005-06-07T01:13:02","slug":"the-triumph-of-evil-the-irony-of-disappointment","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/nachzen.net\/?p=423","title":{"rendered":"The Triumph of Evil (the irony of disappointment)"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Naps are good.<\/p>\n<p>Except when my mom wakes me up suddenly, demands I do something and then<br \/>\nstarts telling me something important while I&#8217;m still not even sure where I<br \/>\nam, what&#8217;s going on, or even who I am.<\/p>\n<p>That happened early this evening.  I was taking a nap because I went to bed<br \/>\nsometime around 11:30 last night, got up at 2, procrastinated for a couple of<br \/>\nhours before buckling down on my paper on Shakepeare&#8217;s _Henry IV_, finishing<br \/>\naround seven something.  Dad was proofreading it this morning and noting,<br \/>\n&#8220;This is your personal philosophy, Joanna.&#8221;  Mom read it and asked, &#8220;Are all<br \/>\nyour papers autobiographical?&#8221;  I reminded her that my last paper was &#8220;The<br \/>\nIrony of Evil&#8221; in which I discussed two of Shakepeare&#8217;s greatest villains,<br \/>\nIago and Edmund.  &#8220;I didn&#8217;t include it in that last paper,&#8221; I told her, &#8220;but<br \/>\nI was originally intending to ask how someone could be that evil and then say<br \/>\nthat to find the answer all I had to do was look inside myself.&#8221;  &#8220;I didn&#8217;t<br \/>\nmean it like that!&#8221; she exclaimed.<\/p>\n<p>I called ATR in Washington and set up an appointment for a phone interview<br \/>\ntomorrow at three.<\/p>\n<p>Functioning merely on caffeine and ginseng tea, I made the final alterations<br \/>\nto my paper and headed out the door, getting to school about 20 till nine.<br \/>\n With some time to kill, I wondered around the fine arts building looking at<br \/>\nthe &#8220;Art With a Southern Drawl&#8221; exhibit and then returning to my classroom,<br \/>\nonly to find it entirely empty.  It was then that I remembered that class<br \/>\nstarts at 9:30 on Tuesdays, not nine.  I can&#8217;t seem to function in a timely<br \/>\nmanner unless I set my alarm for one hour and 15 minutes before class starts.<br \/>\n And last night I got up at 2.<\/p>\n<p>Feeling pretty stupid, I went to the snack shop with Elizabeth and read some<br \/>\nof my world religions text for the quiz we had today.  The rest of the day<br \/>\nwent fairly normally.  We&#8217;re discussing Christianity in WR, and specifically<br \/>\nthe sermon on the mount.  When we got to the part about, &#8220;You have heard it<br \/>\nsaid, &#8216;Do not commit adultery,&#8217; but I say to you that any man who looks<br \/>\nlustfully at a woman has already committed adultery with her in his heart,&#8221;<br \/>\nthe question of what lust is came up.  Andy, sitting behind me, said, &#8220;Joanna<br \/>\nwill have an opinion on the matter.&#8221;  I somehow became the spokesperson for<br \/>\nthe females in the group on how women think.  I was hoping very hard that<br \/>\nwhat I said was what they thought.  But all the girls nodded when we came to<br \/>\nstatement we agreed upon, so I felt a lot better.<\/p>\n<p>I found a couple of books on the National Education Association in the<br \/>\nlibrary and paid a huge fine on a book that was due about a month ago.  Then<br \/>\nI purchased a tall cup of coffee and a pint of whole milk from the snack shop<br \/>\n(caffeine protein&#8211;a winning combination; kept me awake too) and went over to<br \/>\nShakespeare, where one of the theater majors insisted I sit down and play the<br \/>\npiano.  People kept asking me, &#8220;What song is that?&#8221;  &#8220;Sompthin&#8217; I made up.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>At the end of class, Allums said the papers weren&#8217;t due till Thursday.  I<br \/>\nhanded in my paper anyway.  I didn&#8217;t want to work on it anymore.  I suppose<br \/>\nthe title was fitting&#8211;&#8220;The Triumph of Disappointment.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Then I came home, ate a plate of spaghetti, and crashed.  Couple hours of<br \/>\nsleep last night, five the night before (thanks to you), four the night<br \/>\nbefore that.  I&#8217;m going to bed for real tonight.<\/p>\n<p>Jonah (seems to be truly able to operate without much sleep)<\/p>\n<p>Oh, got another letter of rejection today.  From the Pew Younger Program.<br \/>\n Guess that&#8217;s the end of that chapter [grin].<\/p>\n<p>Cara said I didn&#8217;t want an internship at Heritage.  They&#8217;re boring, she said.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Naps are good. Except when my mom wakes me up suddenly, demands I do something and then starts telling me something important while I&#8217;m still not even sure where I am, what&#8217;s going on, or even who I am. That happened early this evening. I was taking a nap because I went to bed sometime&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-423","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-nonclassified-nonsense"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/nachzen.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/423","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/nachzen.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/nachzen.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nachzen.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nachzen.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=423"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/nachzen.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/423\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/nachzen.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=423"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nachzen.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=423"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nachzen.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=423"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}