Sometimes I Win.

It doesn’t seem like often, especially lately.

I have 4.5 hours between classes every day. Initially, I thought this was going to be a terrible schedule. In actuality, things have conspired to make it an excellent schedule. Because I ride Yoshiko (the little Honda) to school everyday, I’m somewhat disinclined to ride home between classes. Each ride involves a fairly lengthy procedure of getting geared up then getting undressed at the other end. It just seemed safer, and cheaper, and more green, and mostly just easier to stay at school between classes. So I spend the entire time in the library doing school work.

This has transformed me from a truly awful student to a pretty good one. I still don’t really take notes, and don’t really know how to study for a test, but I do okay. I’ve got a solid A in 3 classes, and a B+ in the other one, which isn’t bad, all things considered. It varies from week to week, but most of my time is either taken up with Physics or Calculus. I’m doing astonishingly well grade-wise in Calculus, but the grades feel inflated. On the other hand, half the class has dropped, and I’m not sure how many of the others are actually passing.

I spent nearly all of my 4 hours on Monday working on Physics homework that’s due today. I had a bit more trouble than usual since I was in Highlands during the lecture Monday and Wednesday where I should have learned about RC Circuits. I spent most of my 4 hours on Tuesday finishing the physics homework. On Tuesday, I talked with a couple of my classmates about one of the more annoying problems. They agreed it was difficult. I eventually got to a solution on the worst of them, but it required a linear system of 6 equations with 6 unknowns. Which I could probably solve by hand, but which would take hours. So I let Wolfram Alpha do it for me. I got the correct answer, but there’s surely a simpler solution.

Before class this morning, one of my classmates asked if I’d figured it out. I told him about my cop-out, and he said he had a much simpler solution. I reached into my backpack to pull out my homework and discovered that I’d left it sitting on my desk at home. Which really sucks. Hours spent doing homework that now I couldn’t turn in. Not wasted hours, since I needed the practice with the problems, but still seriously annoying that I wouldn’t get credit for it.

I thought it was a bit strange that my physics professor didn’t wander outside for his pre-class pipe smoke. I often sit outside until he’s done smoking his pipe, since obviously class isn’t going to start before then, and sitting outside is generally much more pleasant than sitting in a hot, stuffy, and ugly lecture hall. When he walked into class, he didn’t have his physics book. He said, “Sorry guys, I feel like crap. You can just turn your homework in Friday.” And then he walked out.

So, the day I don’t have my physics homework is the day that class is canceled and homework is due the next day! One of my classmates asked, “Did you poison the professor?”

The even better part is that I needed the time. Since Jonah and I went to Highlands, NC last week, I had all kinds of things to catch up with. Worse, Noell is getting married this weekend, so I don’t have the weekend to do anything. I have a physics test the Monday morning I get back, and Calculus due Friday. With my extra time today I was able to not only finish the Calculus homework, but also finish the programming assignment due on Monday. Which means I’ve got plenty of time to study for Physics tomorrow. If only I knew how to study.

On the one hand, it’s been fun learning things. On the other hand, I’m a pilot, aren’t I? It’s been almost a year since I’ve flown an airliner, and a six months since I’ve been in an airplane. And I’ve got do this for another couple of years before I can graduate. Is it worth it? Can I afford it? I really don’t know. The deferment on my student loans from a decade ago finally went through. Getting a degree pretty much ensures that I’m going to be paying back student loans until I die.

I’m not at all sure this is a good decision. But I’m not sure what else to do.

It’s been a rough week, and I’m seriously looking forward to first Thanksgiving, and then the end of the semester. So I can do it all over again?

School.

School is harder than I remember it being. That’s probably because up until now, I’ve always been a very bad student. I rarely studied for anything, and sometimes wrote papers on things I hadn’t even read. I generally did okay on tests, but never turned in any homework.

Since day 1, I’ve been worried about Calculus II. I’ve been a bad math student for as long as I can remember, only doing enough to get by. I think I did okay in Calculus I, but last time I took Calculus II (back in 1999), I only managed a D. That was good enough to continue, but D’s don’t transfer which meant I needed to take it again. Calculus II relies a fair amount on Calculus I as one might expect, but also requires some fairly good algebra skills. It’s been over a decade since I’ve done any math and that makes it hard. I’ve spent hours on the internet relearning ridiculously basic things like the properties of logarithms, the intricacies of the trig functions, and the basic rules of differentiation. I’ve done all the homework (usually a week ahead of time), and lots of extra non-assigned problems for practice. On average, I spend something like 16 hours per week sitting in the library doing Calculus.

Physics II is my other seriously challenging class, but I’ve always been pretty good at Physics, so I wasn’t expecting much difficulty. Furthermore, it doesn’t rely too heavily on things in Physics I, so it’s okay that I’ve forgotten much of that.

Last week I had a Physics exam on Wednesday and a Calculus exam on Friday. The Physics exam was the first real test I’ve had since coming back to school, and it crushed me.

I wasn’t expecting anything I couldn’t handle, but for some reason the sorts of problems which seemed perfectly doable on my homework seemed impossible in the confines of an hour long test. Furthermore, the noise of 75+ people scribbling, calculating, sniffling, even breathing sometimes seemed to be astonishingly pervasive and oppressive. I don’t know how generous he’ll be with partial credit, but I don’t think I could have scored higher than about 75% or so.

The calculus exam, on the other hand, ended up being just fine. I just got it back today, and managed a 107%. The professor mentioned that 4 people in the rather large class had gotten over 100%, so I guess I’m somewhere in the top 4, which means I can probably stop worrying. She was very generous with partial credit, as I actually made mistakes on 3 of the problems. While she didn’t “curve” the grades, I managed over 100% because there were 110 points on the test, plus a 20 point extra problem, but the grade was only “out of” 100 possible points. It’d be okay with me if the rest of the exams are similarly structured.

Still, a large portion of the class failed the exam. It seems to me that UCCS has quite the range of student ability. Overall, the standards are higher than I worried they might have been, but still a bit lower than UD, though that was to be expected. I’m guessing that overall it’s pretty typical of a large state school.

I’m enjoying my C programming class. The instructor is entertaining and knowledgeable. My Java class, on the other hand, bores me to tears. There was an exam the same day as the calculus exam, and it was actually quite a bit more difficult than I expected. I’m hoping to find out how I did on it today. But the lectures range from off-topic to boring and the assignments are pedantic, tedious, and boring.

Fortunately, I shouldn’t have many more classes like that. Most of the upper level computer science classes look to be challenging. I should be able to take Assembly Language next semester, and that promises to be challenging. I’ve still got to take a lot more math: Calculus III, Discrete Math, Linear Algebra and Statistics. I’ve also got to take Technical Writing, which promises to be awful. But other than that, I’ll be taking Computer Science classes plus two technical electives, so it should be reasonably enjoyable.

If I can figure out how to stay in school. My unemployment expires soon, and I can’t really get enough in federal loans to make ends meet. I tried to get a weekend job flight instructing, but no one’s really interested in a part time instructor on the weekends… Those are the busy days, so they’re also the days that instructors want to work. I can make it through this semester, but next semester I’m either going to have to find a job, borrow money, or figure out how to live a lot more frugally.

Time to make fun of my family.

I’m sitting in the library, struggling with my calculus, and my Mom calls. I don’t answer, because I’m in the library, but instead send her a text back saying I can’t talk right now because I’m in the library. It seems that she and Sydney are on the road to Atlanta and are having car problems. Considering that Mom drives a Toyota Prius, I found it unlikely that there was actually anything wrong.

Me: I’m in the library, can’t talk on the phone. 2:09 PM
Cynthia: Ok will you be out anytime soon? 2:10 PM
Me: well. I was planning on working on calculus until my class. If you really need me, I suppose I can pack up and leave the library and call you back. 2:11 PM
Cynthia: Well…here’s the thing..not sure if you can help 2:13 PM
Cynthia: The engine makes a wierd sound when syd let’s off acceleratosort if like its is downshifting 2:14 PM
Me: You have the car in the wrong mode. You’re in “B” not “D” 2:14 PM
Cynthia: There are no warning lots on 2:14 PM
Cynthia: The cruise control won’t stay on 2:15 PM
Me: Shift into “D”. 2:15 PM
Cynthia: If she decelerates slowly there does not seem to be any sound… 2:16 PM
Cynthia: Just wierd 2:16 PM
Me: SHIFT INTO D!!! 2:17 PM
Cynthia: Oh we are in B! How? Can she shift to D at 78 mph? 2:17 PM
Me: You’re in “B” because she shifted there, because she doesn’t know how to drive a Prius. Yes, she can shift into D and back to B at any speed. 2:18 PM
Cynthia: You are a genius 2:18 PM
Me: Glad I could help. 2:19 PM

Oh, and this is not a new car. Mom’s had the car for the better part of a decade, and Sydney’s driven it thousands of miles…